(not an) American Teen

I wrote this blog just before midnight, with some lo-fi hiphop songs playing to keep me company. Today, i just want to spill all of my thoughts up. Don't expect me to write all those cringy stuffs since i barely feel like it again these day. Teehee

I want to declare that I, am definitely not, an American Teen. Its not like because i wasn't born there, but if you really don't get it, I really don't do their stuffs, their TGIF, their cold bottle, and their condoms. Yup, I am clean. Only smokes twice or thrice in my whole life and only 2 sips each. Never smoke a whole cigarette. Never drink alcohol, even one that has very low percentage. Been to a party once, never again. All those stuffs doesn't suits me well. Its just, I don't know, maybe i was born this way?

Don't get me wrong, I am totally fine having friends that did all those shit above. I don't really care, long as they didn't bother me with anything, then of course i wouldn't mind.

Since i'm new here in Japan, some of my Indonesian friends doesn't really know who i am, and yesterday, one of them actually asked me to go to a nightclub to celebrate Halloween. Well, the halloween celebration would be fun, the party itself would be fun i believe, but when i tried to search for the event online, damn. That shit is whole new bowl, its not my cup. You get me.

Y'all might be wondering by now, what stuffs is considered my cup?

Let me tell you one thing first, I, am an introvert that really enjoy deep intimate relationship. With my very own self, and others that are close to me. Ask me for a cathartic session, and i will definitely up. Always. Coffee? Cake? Pizza? just random night stroll? museum? traditional ceremony? anything. am and always up for those kind of stuffs. Talk to me about everything you want to say. Your ex, your parents, your past, future plan, favorite cat, dramas, movies, games, religion, culture, economy, NBA, La Liga, College life, cars, bikes, mountains, meme, lame jokes, even soothing stars. I have no boundaries of what to say in one cathartic seat or walk. I personally believes that Coffee, reveals one true self better than alcohol. You might not have the same opinion as i do for this. But hey, we got our own freedom of speech right? Alcohol, will definitely fuck your mind up. You will reveal everything that passed through your mind to everyone in sight, randomly. In the other hand, You get to choose what stuffs that you wanted to share to your coffee mate. You got choice. But then, when you really could be that intimate to those mates, unconsciously, you will reveal everything about yourself. It might be not as instant as getting drunk, but that is the whole point. Deep down, you will know that you wanted people to know you layer by layer, book by book, day by day, and in the end, you will feel that your mate is also part of you.