I don't know what happened to me these days, but this feeling, this urge to try, this desire to taste those parties, those drinks, those life has and still developing in my body. Brain and heart-wise, I really really don't wanna do it. But lust-wise, damn, it became someone else. My lust is not me anymore.
Maybe being far away from home also took part in this, but i didn't see it coming this soon. I'm only 2 and a half months away and i'm starting to lose myself (well, i hope not), but it is what it is. This is what i am truly feeling right now.
I wanna try those drinks and get drunk, i wanna come to the parties and dance, i wanna get home a bit tipsy bringing a chick with me and finally lose my virginity lol. But oh well, i gotta keep my dick halal, and i guess i'll go to a party when i got back to Jogja, but for the drinks, i guess i'll just wait till i die cause ill try it in heaven. wish me luck.
